Fear at it's very Best

Fear creeps up on us every day, whether it's in life's daily challenges, or the big ones. It wraps you in it's clutches, and grabs on for dear life, until all that is left of you is an insecure, doubtful, skeptical lesser version of yourself.

Some fear is healthy, like the fear that gives you the adrenaline rush enough to get through a big presentation, or an evaluation, or an operatic performance in front of about 400 people! But the other fear, the soul leaching, negative, scary fear will bring you down with no mercy, and take it's toll on everything you hold dear - your health is usually the first to go, relationships, daily functioning... I feel have some pretty extensive knowledge about fear, because I have lived through some of the worst fear ever. As a result, I suffered greatly in all areas I just mentioned above. And, amazingly, what snapped me out of it, was an all-inclusive trip to Mexico, of all things! When I returned, I felt better, more clear-headed, more relaxed. It was just what I needed to put everything into perspective. I also had a blast while I was there (Cancun, spring break), but don't worry, I turned down the guys with the "Girls Gone Wild" video cameras!

However, after arriving back home, more calm and settled, I asked myself, why didnt I just have some faith? I could have saved myself a whole crap-load of trouble if I had just put my fate in the hands of a higher power, or at least surrendered my destiny to fate. :)

Looking back now, the problems I had then seem so small. Now there are much more serious problems to face, of course! Just keep reminding me that someday I will think they are small too, and there will be more challenging situations ahead!

I now have another important challenge on my plate, and am unsure how to handle all the details. Sometimes, the uncertainty of it all threatens to bring me down once again. However, this time, I have some insight about how "This too shall pass", and I am ready for whatever comes my way. I plan to surround myself in the love of others, who lift me up when I am down, and help me put things into perspective when I can't see clearly. I won't be "going down" this time!!!

"The beautiful thing about the desert is that somwhere it hides a well" ~ Antoine de Saint-Exupery